In short, my story is long and scary, heartbreaking and fun. It’s wild and crazy and full of adventure. It’s full of high highs and low lows and it’s all over the map.
It was full of starving and binging, smoking and drinking, purging and pleasing, perfecting and experimenting.
At 19 I had enough courage to leave an abusive relationship and travel the world. I tubed down the Nam Song river in Vang Vieng, I motorbiked around the Southern Isles of Thailand with my best friend on the back, I go-go danced in Darwin with some rockstar girls, I did a lot of things I’ll never forget. I loved and laughed and lived to the fullest. I met beautiful people and slept in the sand.
Except there was only one problem. With every train, plane, bus, and automobile I set foot on, so did my myriad of mental battles.
From eating disorder(s) to anxieties, to obsessive-compulsive habits, to depression, to this and to that.
I was leading an amazing life, but it was time to get back to the girl in the picture– the one who was always carefree and smiling–The child at the heart, the free adventurous spirit, the free-flying soul.
It was time to find her, to free her again.
And so I did.
I made the hardest and easiest decision I’ve ever made in my life: I chose to get better. I chose to heal. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy, but I knew for damn sure that it was all going to be worth it.
And I struggled again.
I got hit with Postpartum Anxiety and OCD hard. I was terrified to death of anything happening to her. I forgot everything I knew because she was a gamechanger. My heart quadrupled in size and so did my fears.
But here I am today, present and aware and loving unconditionally, courageous and myself and mostly habit-free– I’m still human– and loving the little and big gifts in my life.
And my point? I lived through experiences and that’s what defines me. I have struggled super hard and hit rock bottom, but I have always made choices to rise up above anything. I hope to inspire you by using myself as an example because our struggles make us beautiful and only a part of who we are today.
And my other point? That this is all entirely possible for you too, despite how impossible it feels at times.
I know that when we’re caught up in our thinking, our anxieties, and our minds’ ideas of how life is or should be, it doesn’t always feel like freedom is only one thought away.
It’s not always easy to find our peace of mind in the moments that we crave it the most, but it’s there, always, working by nature for you.
I want you to fully embrace who it is that you are as your natural birthright and know that if I can do it, you can too.
So please, take your time. Poke around. Read some stuff if you feel so inclined and send me a message, I’d love to hear from you.
Until then dear Warrior, take care.
My Message To You…
“I didn’t go looking for a Coach! Jen Smith simply showed up for me…at our local gym where I was struggling with massive guilt, shame, and self-loathing! Her beautiful smile and sweet nature was immediately captivating and what a gift she has been to me! I experienced a painless transformation in my thinking that has really helped me set myself free of negative talk toward greater self-acceptance. Thanks for your compassion and for providing me with tools and interventions that are moving me in the right direction!”Jeanne Fike
“Jen’s patience and considerable life experience make her a valuable coach! She helped me recognize common patterns in my thinking that were holding me back from getting the most out of life. If you’re looking for a coach that has gone through what you’re going through and come out the other side with wisdom and compassion, I strongly recommend working with Jen!”Shannon, B.C.
“I have been coached by Jen on several occasions and those sessions have made a tremendous difference in my life. Jen is truly an excellent coach. She is professional easy to talk to and engaged passionate about her work and getting the result I set for myself. She is totally committed and has me shift old beliefs and see things in a completely new perspective – this has made a huge difference in my life. I truly enjoy working with Jen and will definitely continue to do so and I definitely recommend her to anyone wanting to make a change in their life.”Beatrice, Quebec
Jen is a powerful, insightful coach who can help you find your way out of pain and into the life you deserve. She is well-trained and great at her craft but more importantly, she walks her talk. Jen has been where you are. Part of what makes Jen such an incredible coach is that she is devoted to turning her past pain into your transformation. She oozes authenticity and kindness–invest in her help, please. You deserve it and you won’t be sorry! “Dr. Amy Johnson, Mich, USA