I missed you last week. I was away on a family holiday being human, getting caught in my minds ideas, or rather, collecting wisdom, as I now prefer to call it. While I was away, I was reminded of something incredibly human and I wanted to shed some light on it. I wanted to shed some light on it because it is something that I have been particularly “guilty” of in my past and from time to time, still am because I’m human, just like you.
It is something that has caused a lot of (innocent) suffering in the past, more than I care to get into, and something that has caused a lot of (innocent) confusion in the past, and sometimes still to this day.
And the reason I’m sharing it with you dear Warrior, is because it’s something that most of us humans innocently do from time to time. It’s a reoccurring (innocent) habit I see in both myself, and a lot of other humans I know.
And that is, innocently giving power to our minds ideas by trying to solve them with the same energy that was used to create them.
Albert Einstein said it well when he said, “we can’t solve problems by using the same thinking we used when we created them.”
And of course, Albert was right, but I have even more good news to add.
You see, we are not responsible for, nor in charge of, what shows up in our awareness. Not on a day to day, nor on a moment to moment basis.
Energy shows up, the same energy that gives us the very inexplicable phenomena of life, and then it takes form in our consciousness, (our human special effects department as my dear friend refers to it), and it becomes better known as our thinking; our thoughts.
And then we become the ones who feel them innocently forgetting that we are not the ones that created them. The “creator” is far bigger and much wiser than our little human minds. It is far bigger and much wiser than our little human computers could ever explain. It has several names now, and has throughout history, but I am referring to is as the “creator” (the energy source) for sake of simplicity.
Which brings me to my hearts message.
There are many times in my life where I used to think I needed to “figure things out.” I used to think I needed to “find answers to my problems.” Which I might add, is a very human thing to do.
But what I didn’t realize at the time, when I was trying so hard to actively do these things, was that, itself, the doing, was the only problem. That, itself, the doing, was the one thing perpetuating the confusion. That, itself, the doing, was what was at the very essence of keeping my “problem” alive.
I was feeling bad, but wanting to feel good. It was innocent. I was human, I still am.
And when I was on the quest for answers, to figure things out, to feel better, to believe in myself, I was innocently using the same energy to find the solution as I was to combat the problem.
I was innocently using energy against energy.
I wasn’t enjoying the thoughts that showed up, so I was trying to prove them wrong..
I felt uncomfortable by the the thoughts that showed up, so I searched for things to calm me down.
I didn’t like the thoughts that showed up, so I tried figure out how to make them disappear.
All the while very innocently missing what was right in front of me, right inside of me, right underneath my looking, and searching, and figuring; my quest to feel something other than what I was feeling.
I forgot that who I am by nature beneath my thoughts, my minds’ ideas, my ego’s suggestions, my upstairs chatter, my protective voice,
I forgot that trying to prove my thoughts wrong, was a demand from my mind, and not from my heart.
I forgot that who I am by nature before innocently believing otherwise is something so much bigger, so much wiser, so much better than even needing answers, than needing to feel better, than needing to find solutions.
Because who we are by nature before needing to “figure it out” IS figured out.
Because who we are by nature before needing to “believe in ourselves” IS believing in ourselves.
Because who we are by nature before needing to “find answers” IS the answer.
What we have available to us beneath and before our minds ideas that look like they need our attention, is love and wisdom and peace from pain.
What we have available to us at all times, is what we are before these illusions take place.
What I did didn’t see at the time was the only problems I ever had, was innocently believing the illusion that I had a problems. What I didn’t realize at the time, was the only problems I ever had were not problems, they were illusions.
It is not us, but our minds that demand answers, because our souls already have them. Solutions, answers, good feelings, peace, happiness, clarity, gratitude, are what we’re made of. And solutions, answers, good feelings, peace, happiness, clarity, gratitude are what appear naturally, and effortlessly, as they are at the very core of being human, they are the core of our very being.
They are who we are before the illusions take form and make it look like we are not.